Friday, December 15, 2006
Monday, October 02, 2006
Like Children.
It's difficult to go very long in the work world without realizing that it often is just killing the soul. "Grow up and act like an adult", is something often uttered in a silent voice in the mind. But doesn't it seem that things are just wrong? That the real person you used to be is being replaced by a robotic unit working for the bottom line.
Another example is in how we relate to others. Many people, myself most guilty among them often live and "love" in ways so as to keep people at a distance. It's not that we don't care, or aren't transparent. It's simply that we've been hurt and just can't really handle it anymore, so we despair and deal with it by denying risk. I don't mean to say whenever somebody doesn't pursue a relationship, it's because they're scared. Often, that gut feeling early on is a pretty good indicator.
But what happened to that kid? That kid with a heart of gold, that kid who cried "daddy", the kid who was willing to throw down with someone twice his size for messing with his brother, and the kid who's not at all ashamed to say, "that's wrong. Here's an idea: in the midst of growing up, the kid felt like he had to change and become fully independent, and to do that, she had to deny other parts of herself. What to do now, when the independence is all that's left?
My only answer is to cry out to God for mercy. To ask for renewal and rebirth. For Humility and grace. It's going to be a long road, but "There is no easy walk to freedom anywhere..." Here's to a different kind of freedom, a different kind of kingdom; one where the heart of a child is honored and longed for.
Monday, September 18, 2006
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Gabriel's 2nd B-day Party
Pizza and 4 straight hours of Gabe play-time makes for a good night.
Ya, and Gabe was sporting the Caveman look all night. Showing off the baby-guns.
Ya, and Gabe was sporting the Caveman look all night. Showing off the baby-guns.
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
It's easier to go to work when work is cool...
Monday, August 14, 2006
Vacation Pics 2
View from the stern of our fine vessel as we come about
Sunset in La Jolla Cove
My foot after running into some tie wire on the mountain. Mmm, tasty.
Dream spot in the cove I ran around (ask for the story if you talk to me).
Some Vacation Pics 1
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
From the Sublime to the Ridiculous
note the truck sitting on the deck
West Virginia takes a lot of crap from the rest of the nation for being hillbillies, dating your sister and stuff. But in all truth, it's a really beautiful place with some sweet hiking and pretty good people, all in all...
However, when things like this happen; it reminds us of why the jokes are told. http://www.wsaz.com/home/headlines/3227076.html
Let's start with dude in the truck. You drive over this bridge all the time. You know your truck is close to the clearance limit, and you have some contraption in the bed of said truck. You should probably make sure it's all the way down and that you'll be underneath the top chord of the truss. (Yes, I know the bridge was twice the legal weight limit, but the failure was caused by collision with the truss). C'mon dude.
Next let's go to the responsibility of the state. I know the bridge is old, but let's take the sign off of a load-bearing member. That's about it.
West Virginia takes a lot of crap from the rest of the nation for being hillbillies, dating your sister and stuff. But in all truth, it's a really beautiful place with some sweet hiking and pretty good people, all in all...
However, when things like this happen; it reminds us of why the jokes are told. http://www.wsaz.com/home/headlines/3227076.html
Let's start with dude in the truck. You drive over this bridge all the time. You know your truck is close to the clearance limit, and you have some contraption in the bed of said truck. You should probably make sure it's all the way down and that you'll be underneath the top chord of the truss. (Yes, I know the bridge was twice the legal weight limit, but the failure was caused by collision with the truss). C'mon dude.
Next let's go to the responsibility of the state. I know the bridge is old, but let's take the sign off of a load-bearing member. That's about it.
Sunday, June 11, 2006
The TRI
Check out the new blog, dedicated to training of the physical, you can read my first race report there.
http://www.torchdefitness.blogspot.com
http://www.torchdefitness.blogspot.com
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Give to Whom it Belongs...
A tale is recounted in my mind recently where a man is asked if people should pay taxes to the authority. The man asks for a coin, and asks whose face is on it. The people respond with the name of the current political leader and the man replies, "Give to the Leader what is his..."
A slightly different take: If belonging is denoted by what face is on something, and we presume that man is made in the image of God, what does this say about what we belong to and should be given to?
Saturday, May 13, 2006
Shoes and pedals
The New Bike
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Finding your cow pasture
I've learned in the past while that many people who are very healthy (I know physically and I'm pretty sure mentally too) are all about eastern mysticism, zen buddhism and the like. They speak of mindfulness and breathing techniques. I have a friend who is getting a Ph.D in clinical psychology and has found that there are many Christians who are more depressed than their non-christian counterparts (this testing has something to do with alcohol, and I can explain more later with his permission). The point is that there are a great deal of mental health issues within Christianity. This has to do with a number of things I think: Stigma attached with certain behaviors, trying to live up to a perceived super-christian standard, or myriad other particulars.
I heard a smart guy speak one time about how he stayed sane. His wife had been killed in a highway accident about a year earlier when a car came over the median and collided with head on with hers. He said he had to take time and go out to a cow pasture with high grass and just lay there. He would let all of the thoughts in his head work through his head and just wait until his brain was empty of the thoughts of his day and week. Then he would start listening for God.
We were created and told to take breaks, to rest, to commune with family, nature, and God. We often don't do these things and then say God or our faith is failing us. God has given us and continues to give us all that we need. We need to slow down, take deep breaths and process our day. We need to get outside and exercise. In short we need to find our cow pasture.
What is yours and when was the last time you were there? What do you think will happen if you go there? What is out there?
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Testing the Limits of the human heart and then? Sabbath
In a couple of days I'll have completed 7 years of schooling, well over 200 hours of credit, attaining 3 degrees along the way and the first of a couple professional certifications. I've had to dig deep many a night and battle off sleep, push beyond my given limitations to achieve difficult things. However, I'm looking forward to a normal schedule (if only for a while), and some good solid marathon training with plenty of sleep. ahhhh
While most people think I'm crazy and driven, I simply think total surrender is the only way to live a good life.
There's some inherent ambivalence in that statement when it comes to our lives. Of course, times where we make mistakes or settle. But we press on.
I can't understand or explain many things in this life. But at some point I believe there will be a respite from the storm, a sleep for the weary, and peace for the chaos. That's what we're all searching for right? How do you get there?
Monday, April 17, 2006
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Asics, Speed Workouts and Freedom
Check out the Asics club pictured here at the Dunbar High track. Jon and Joshua kicking the GT-2110's and yours truly with those shiny red DS-Trainers. It was fun to push it a little bit today.
Running blog moment for the weekend: 4x800 m with a recovery lap inbetween each. Shua and myself are trying to keep each 800 under 3min, 10sec and build up to increase our VO2 max potential.
Myself and Shua have both been asked about the craziness of doing a marathon, and someone even proof-texted 1 Tim. 4:8 to me and said "of little value." (Read on). I decided I'd read the rest of the chapter as proof-texting is often a very personalized science to make one's point with no regard for the truth or purpose of the scripture. Naturally, I didn't feel too bad about punishing my body to bring it into submission in place of watching TV and eating chips, so read 1 Tim. 4 (because I'm not going to type the whole thing). It would seem that Paul is writing Timothy to inform him that people will always want to start imposing laws on others and tabbing it "righteousness." But he writes in v. 4: "For Everything God created is good, and nothing is to be rejected if it is received with thanksgiving. Because it is consecrated by the word of God and Prayer." Now maybe I'm stretching this (if you think so, please tell me), but I see being able to run now, and get out in nature, and establish new friendships with people as blessings from God.
This is the beauty of the new covenant. It came and was put into practice because the old covenant was weak and useless (see Hebrews 7 if you don't believe me {v.18 and surrounding}) because it became regulations and laws, perpetual sacrifice. Christ (our high priest in the order of Melchizedek) has already sacrificed and therefore does not need to continue the ritual. This is the hope we have. This is the freedom we have: We are crucified with Christ already and daily, but do not allow Satan (or people espousing knowledge) to crucify you. Live in the freedom and knowledge that you are a Child of God. You already have your place as a son or daughter. Simply live in that truth and obey God. Seek to know him more deeply, seek to love his heart and break with the things that break his. In essence, live an abundant life and glorify God with it. 'Nuff said
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